Wednesday, March 30, 2011

hey you

I'm metro surfing as I'm writing this, heading into town to see Kajsa and go for a walk, hopefully get a boost or some inspiration since I've convinced myself as of yesterday that my screenplay is awful and is getting worse with each draft and I'm a horrible writer. Also, she's bringing me my medallion that I've bought from her. Hopefully that will help a little as well.

I've got platina

I meant for the title to say "I've gone platinum"

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

This is what happens when the world is grey and your main character insists on being a sex addict with crush on her best friend

"Perhaps that's too much to ask of someone who spends the greater part of her creative intellect on her hair..." -- Professor Goodwin, "Gossip"

Hugin & Munin part II

This is what my 4th tattoo looks like now that it's healed

"Sometimes we like to state an opinion about the topics we discuss, but perhaps that's too much to ask of someone who spends all of her creative intellect on her hair..." -- Professor Goodwin, "Gossip"

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Slow

So I thought I'd be able to write a longer, more detailed blog entry while I was away, but of course the wireless connection at the inn was completely uncooperative, and now I'm back in Stockholm again. Actually, I'm at the library in Solna, just so I can get access to an internet connection.

The three days in Sunne were intense. It started on a dramatic note the night before, actually. Kajsa and I were driving down, or up, or sideways, whereever it is in relationship to Stockholm, my geography knowledge is just as bad as my sense of direction... because halfway there, the car went and died on us. Then it started up again, and after about ten minutes, it died again... and so it went, all the way to Sunne, which meant that instead of arriving at about ten o'clock at night, we got there at about midnight, or one o'clock in the morning, I'm not sure... needless to say we're exhausted and shaken up (it's quite scary when you're driving in a single lane on the highway in the middle of the night and your car breaks down and the only other traffic besides yourself are these huge trucks and lorries...) but we got to where we were going in one piece and that's all that matters.

The feedback discussions in my group were awesome, so inspiring. My script was up last, on the second day, and just like all the previous feedback and open discussions, I was overwhelmed by the extensive and rewarding feedback, also I was surprisingly struck by a revelation of my own, halfway through, that one of the characters in my screenplay is actually based on a real person from my past, and that was mind-boggling I can tell you... and that, as well as the revelation that I had just before writing this sixth draft about my main characters intimacy disorder, is the reason I'm experiencing the most amount of resistence to continuing this writing process that I have since I started. In fact, I haven't even so much as opened the document on my computer since then. Instead I started writing a play for this contest, deadline 15th of September.

I sent a text to the producer about meeting to talk about my short film, still haven't heard back from her. I guess it is Sunday, and she just finished shooting another short film and I only just sent the text this morning, but still. Things are happening too slowly, I feel like I need to explode all over the place, like everything around me is happening in slow motion and I have to try and reel myself in and force myself to go more slowly, and it's really frustrating. It's like being a kid again. Constantly being told to settle down, slow down, repeat myself more slowly, be still. I hate that.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Food

Because you're dying to know what I'm eating today

Thursday, March 17, 2011

I haven't had Internet on my computer for a while, but I have a new mobile now with Internet access at least, but it's a real pain writing anything at length on this tiny touch screen keyboard.. But a quick update for now;

The past week I've been embarassingly unproductive and not worked one bit, but I did finish the sixth draft of my screenplay in time for the deadline for the feedback meet in Sunne; I'm leaving town this Monday, travelling by car with Kajsa again, and won't be back in Stockholm until the 25th. Tonight I'm meeting Tove to discuss the photography in the short film I'm just starting pre-production on, and tomorrow I'm meeting the producer.

I'll be busy all weekend, working pro bono as a FAD on a shoot of a music video for this garage metal band that are releasing their first CD. I'm not too excited about it, but it'll get me another credit at least..

I'll probably be able to write a proper entry next week, I know the place I'm staying at has wireless so.. I'll check back with you then!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Here it is...

Here it is on Twitpic


My 4th tattoo of Hugin & Munin.

EDIT: I'm still figuring out my new phone, but now you can see it ! (although this picture was taken once the tattoo had started scabbing over slightly, so it looks more solid black than it actually is, it's more "sketched")

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

"Things are looking up"

I finally got myself a new mobile. I've yet to get it running, because I needed to download a newer version of itunes before I could sync it and whatnot, and in order to download anything, you need an internet connection and so I had to get myself to the nearest library where I could access an internet connection, but as of this afternoon I am back in business, and it's such a relief it's ridiculous. All those times I claimed to be anti-social and expressed naïve wishes to be phoneless, I take it all back. Obviously, there's a difference between turning the sound off your mobile or screening your calls when you wish to be left alone for a while, and being stripped of your only link to the rest of the world, against your will...

I also went and got myself spontaneously tattooed yesterday. Hugin & Munin, like I'd already decided on. The sketch I made myself about six months ago, only twice as big -- the tattooer's suggestion, and it seemed like a good idea -- and not on my shoulder blade like I'd originally planned, either -- no-one's suggestion, just an impulsive change of plan, completely on me. I'll take a picture of it later and post it, see what you guys think.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Tjockis substitute & a dying mobile phone

I've been having difficulties accessing an internet connection in the past week. Extremely frustrating. Especially when my mobile decides it's about time it broke, as well. I've not been able to answer any incoming calls all week.

But yesterday, I got mail. And it made my month. It was a parcel from my parents and contained the usual news paper clippings and mail that'd been sent to their address and some accessory that I'd forgot the last time I was home for a visit... but also, a Tjockis substitute! (Tjockis is the name of my cat, who's staying with my parents since I moved to Vancouver in 2007, and whom I miss severely now that they won't give her back, and now a friend of my mum's has made a stuffed cat with her exact colouring, including her eye colour which is really special, she has one yellow and one blue eye, so it's no mistaking who the plushie is supposed to be!) 

I have pictures... (yes, I am that much of a child)