I made a free portfolio on Deviant Art.

http://ida-thomasdotter.daportfolio.com/

tiny little clusters of tumors in my brain

I met up with Mike downtown the other night and we went for an epic walk-and-talk which was nice and much needed, I think for both of us, and I felt like I could just relax and forget about the clusterfuck that is my life right now at least for a little while. I'm faced with one obstacle after another it seems. Still more problems arose today, so hip hip hurrah. I'm just going to ignore them for the time being and just focus on putting something resembling a portfolio together and then I'll deal with the boring grown-up stuff tomorrow, or y'know, the day after that maybe...

Suicidal cookie

Lots of things to do today, so I have to make this brief. Not that I really know what this is, not much has happened since my last entry, so I don't really have anything to write about. I'm still figuring things out, and procrastinating, and working, I haven't heard anything from my agent since the last audition I did (which I blew) and right now I'm focusing on the future.

Ana has this amazing idea for a documentary that she wants to do, and I'm allowed to help out on the project providing I'm actually around, so I have kept myself kind of detached to the whole thing I think just because I don't know for sure if I'll be around to do it with her and I don't want to get all excited and then disappointed... and also with a documentary I feel that my assets or contribution would be limited in comparison to a film, because I can do fiction no problem, I'm creative, I have a wild imagination, I'm artsy, all of which actually works against you in reality and documentary-making, I think. But I'm good at research and being stubbornly inquisitive though, so I'm sure I'll manage to find a straw to add to the nest... if I get to stick around at all, that is.

I had this fix idea about a year ago to name a production/publishing company "Bloody cookie whatever" (it derives from when I first started working in "Death by chocolate" and I was bitching to Brett about not being able to learn the names of the stupid cakes...), I mentioned this to Ana but she didn't like it. She said that just "Fucking cookie" was preferable. That it was the word "bloody" she didn't like because it sounded too british. We then agreed on "Suicidal cookie", hence the title of this entry, so I just thought I'd share with the class... "Suicidal cookie" is the working title of the production company. What do you think?

More on said production company, I've had several ideas for films in the past couple of days, well, it was dead slow at work and the t-shirts were already folded, so I had time to think and day dream... and scribble on pieces of paper... and I have plenty of stuff to play around with now. I mustn't get too tunnel-visioned on this one though, not right now, I can't afford to, I have to be practical and I have to devote my creativity and energy on making my portfolio for Emily Carr... so, I'm off to do some practical stuff now, I'll talk you later!